It’s so dark…
I can hear all of those whispers…
It’s frustrating, how my heart is racing uncontrollably…
My whole body is shaking and feeling numb
All i can see are people staring at me, they’re laughing… but, are they laughing at me?
I’m sure they are, I’ve said something stupid didn’t i?
Is it because i wear a mask?
I’m sorry I’m weird… but but if you can’t look at my face, just remember that i can’t stand looking at myself either.
I’m different, i know i am, i’ve always been different… you know i can’t change my appearance right?
All of those eyes, pointed at my way while i am slowly falling in the darkness, suffocating in this abyss…
There isn’t much more oxygen left in my lungs, if there was ever any.
It’s almost my stop, i can’t see clearly through my foggy glasses,i need to press the button…
Are they going to think I’m rude for pushing them aside?
Nevermind, i’ll wait for someone to press the button instead…
No one is pressing it…
I’m going to be late for class if i don’t get off now…
I can’t move…
My body is frozen in place…
I hate this… i hate feeling suffocated by my anxiety…
Now we passed the stop, i’ll have to way for the next one.
But then the teacher will be upset… I’ll have to think about it later, for now, i will put my earphones on, and block the world out.
Delia Alexandrescu 2AA